... like a monkey with a miniature cymbal

Reoccurring themes. Themes that reoccur. I think you’d have enough of them here to last a life time, don’t you think? Yeah for sure, I’m all about it.

So themes – me over analysing things. In this instance, I was talking with a friend who’s OS about their birthday celebrations over the weekend. Full of drugs, booze, and wild times. There was some chat about financial difficulties about living over there, and there was talk about how wild it is. There was talk of tattoos, of future trips, and of how good life is, despite having just given up work because they loathed it. And more financial difficulties after run ins with debt collectors.

I thought initially about how irritating I find these discussions and their choices – I feel that they’re self destructive, that it’s all excessive and lacks any responsibility or accountability for their actions/decisions, save for perhaps a hole in the nasal passages, significant debt and some lame tattoos. I find it hard to deal with as I look for rationale behind all these actions/decisions, which is obviously hard to find – near on impossible really.

WELL I was thinking more about it more last night & this morning (wow, more thinking) and I had a very different thought. A bit of an ‘Aha’ moment. What is wrong with living to the max? Nothing really, it’s actually not a bad idea at all. Life is really so short, so you should live life to the max! I think I like to try and do that too – I like to be on the go all the time, but in a slightly different way. I should in fact respect this individual for being adventurous and living it up. But I don’t. For a clear reason…

I don’t like stupid people. Clearly there are some stupid actions here, contradictions and poor decisions, and that’s what really frustrate me. What they’re doing doesn’t interest me (i.e. the way they’re living OS) which is fine, but it’s the way they go about it that is stupid. So that is that. But still I worry.

So why do I worry? Well I can’t, based purely on my new understanding that you have to live life to the max. Life is too short to worry about other people & their decisions; you can’t change them. I still think that you need to have some understanding of the repercussions of your actions, but you should evaluate them and weigh them up in the light of the situation. If you’re naff you can’t do this, so that’s the problem.

I again feel better. I’ve over analysed an area of pervious over-analysis, which makes this ‘super-analysis’ amazing. Perhaps overdone, and it’s been done too often, but look at the outcome! Solid movements. Solid! Did this make sense? I’ve drawn a flow chart of the understanding to flesh it out simply:



Did you like the Hot Chip reference too? I did. The song's going Over and Over and Over and Over in my head now...