OCD

I think I’m in a bit of a rut. I really don’t have a decent reason to be in one, but I’m in one none the less.

So in order to get out, it’s always good to set little ‘challenges’. Today’s challenge is to not go onto FB (on the computer, I wrote happy birthday to people to people from the iPhone). Now surely this seem simple, and in essence it should be. I didn’t go onto FB on my work machine for the first 5 or so months whilst I was here, but after that I feel into old habits and checked it a few times throughout the day. It’s all about habits, and checking in on everyone is just too compelling to stop doing all the time. Whilst the habit is to log in, it is motivated by a intrinsic desire to know what people are up to – a voyeuristic desire to keep tabs on everything.

There in-lies the real difficulty. It’s hard to let go of that knowledge after making it a part of your day-to-day rituals, but really, it’s not vital to my survival to check in on what people are up to all the time. You can check in from time to time and pick up the information, it’s about being less obsessed by it all. I need to chill out.

I’ve wanted to go on a few times today, but I won’t as it’s a challenge. That and I keep telling myself to chill out. So CHILL OUT. And don’t log onto FB. And chill out.